For the 2nd time in my entire life, I got so worried sick and my heart stopped a beat for that 10 mins.
I lost rie again. This time at United square for close to 10mins I think. It was short, but it was the longest period of time in my life.
She was just there at the build a bear section, fiddling with the items. Hubby was looking at some medela exchange your bottle stuffs and I just walked over to take a peak and the moment I was there reading the notice, hb asked me " where's rie."
OMG. I thought she was just nearby or whatever, looked and searched and no sight of her!! We both got damn worried and I started to ask those parents who were around where rie was if they saw her or not. Everyone said no. Hubby started shouting for her, and I shouted her name aloud and looked everywhere. Still no sight of her. I saw hb's worried face and I got worried sick too.
I started running around, shouting and praying hard that she will appear right infront of me, but nothing! I ran towards Bakerzin, she couldnt have ran so far off. I was worried if someone bad would just kidnap her or not. What if I really lost her for good??? How how how!!!
Then, this gentleman, asked me if I was looking for a little girl, and that he saw 2 ladies bringing a little girl towards the customer service counter. I rushed there, and at the corner of the pillar, I saw a little girl wearing pink with a lady. It was just like a second before that littl girl disappeared behind the pillar. I shouted for her, the lady miraculously turned back and there she was!!! My little girl!!!
I rushed to hug her and asked her where she went. She seem to be in a daze and I thanked the ladies profusely. She said they saw her at the corner and was about to bring her to the customer service counter. I was soooo closed to tears, I beared.
I carried her to find hb and once hb saw her, he raised his palms, scolded her and questioned her where she went. I know deep down, he was worried sick too. All of us were. Everyone looked at us, but at that moment, only my girl matters most to me.
As we walked off, I kept asking her and asking and asking why did she just walk off without telling us. This uncle who also helped us look for rie was across and spotted us. Hb waved a thank you to him. He smiled and waved back.
This was the worst of all lor. 2nd time, twice in a year. I would have hated myself for the rest of my life if anything happened to her. Hb dashed out of the building to look for her, he told me he was so worried if she ran out of the building.
I was thinking, she must have walked off to somewhere that interest her, but it never occured to me she would walk so far away. Normally, she would shout for us, but not this time. I must never trust her.
If she could have easily followed that 2 ladies away, I think she would easily follow any bad people with evil motives. How vulnerable a little girl of her age can be. Hb went on and on and on chiding me over and over again. I was already so sad deep down, full of regrets....
I was just reading an acquaintance of mine, who blogged abt losing her son too. He dashed into the lift and the doors closed before they could get in. She ran up to duno which floor like mad, and when she arrived, the lift was empty. She dashed down again to the first floor, and it was empty. She opened up this door and was worried it would lead to the main road. And luckily, there her son stood, right infront of a crowd.
How could such lousy parents like me exist????? I dont deserve to be called a good mummy. Sob sob. Pls dont do this again to me baby.