A day to mourn for Puffy

This morning on the way to work, I received a sad sms from Kitkit, who is the adopter of Beanie and Puffy.

She said that Puffy has passed on yesterday due to long term illness and was under medication. He passed on while on the way to Dr Ling in the morning. I was so upset over it!!! Puffy and Beanie are netherland dwarf and was abandoned by their owner years back and approached HRSS for help. I took over to foster Puffy and Beanie for few months as we searched for a suitable adopter. And kitkit won us over with her sincere heart to take care both of them.

Puffy was very guai and if I can, I would have adopted him. He stayed in my room the whole night and didnt even make a noise and pee only in the potty that I gave him. He had this round cheek and small head that makes him incredibly cute. But he had maloccusion and so he couldnt eat hard things... This photo was taken when he stayed in my room next to my bed...I read kitkit's sms saying that he had undergone twice to file his teeth twice and he was scared by it...This photo is taken when he laid on my bed...I MISSSSSS him so much!!!! And this is Beanie together with Puffy. They are inseparable..She loves to groom him and is like an elder sister to him.

Somehow I think I would cry terribly and perhaps take a day or two to mourn for my own rabbits if they passed on. I would be so upset. I dont wish for them to pass on....boo hoo..

Today is Friday and boss is on leave. haha, havoc time? Nah, it's the month end close and everybody is rushing....I am getting tired as days goes by. Everyday I have to drag myself out of the bed, dress up and rush for the bus. And yet I cannot run for the bus. Then after lunch, I would feel very sleepy and keep on yawning. Haiz...As each day pass by, I get excited and anxious abt bb. I cant wait to feel how it is like to have kicks in your tummy.

Yesterday at MIL's place, hubby brought up the topic as to who will care for bb when I return back to work. I didnt like him bringing up this topic as it is too early and also no one would know what would happen. Besides, it's our baby and it makes it seem like once born, I cannot care for it. Was pretty upset deep down and told him in the lift. He promised not to bring this matter up until near delivery time.

My appetite is terrible! I can have chicken rice during lunch at noon and got hungry at 4pm already. Last night had dinner at 8pm and I was hungry at 1030pm! Oh boy, at this speed, I am sure to get fat!!!!! My bras are getting tigher already and am pestering hubby to pei me go get some cheap bras...

First visit

This morning woke up and didnt want to go to work. Told hubby I will take the day off and see Dr Seng, but he insisted me to go for half a day in the morning.

So I dragged myself to work and thought I could make an appointment in the afternoon. But who knows, dr Seng wasnt free and I had to go at 1130am. Damn.

So boss was so kind to let me take 2 hours of time off and half a day leave in the afternoon.

When I arrived, I was on high tide and quickly got the small cup and pee for the test. Pauline did a pregnancy test again to confirm and a strip of thing which I dont know what is that for. Anyway, I am pregnant. kekeke. So happy.

Pauline looked at my BBT chart and said it was a very good chart with high temperature and she spotted my ovulation as well. But then, it seems like the dates she think I ovulated doesnt coincides with the date I tested postive on my opk. mmm..

Everyone at the clinic was happy for me and hubby, so was Dr Seng. Told him my whole story and he said to scan and estimate how many weeks I was. Irene had wanted me to take off my panties to do the vscan, but I didnt want to when I saw how huge that penis-look alike thing was. My god. So I opted for the normal abdominal scan instead. keke. Praying deep inside that I can see something, coz Pauline said I might be too early to see anything.

Okay, Dr Seng is here. Checked my blood pressure, scan scan scan, ah, I think I saw a little black dot! There it is..Is it or is it not? It doesnt seem quite visible as it is very small. Dr Seng freezed the screen and took measurement of it. Yap, that is my waterbag. 7mm and the machine says that I am 5 weeks 3 days. Gee, cannot be lah, I told Dr Seng, as I should conceive only early this month.

Well, hubby's gonna be upset that I'm not having twins, but singleton only. And I told him that it's gonna be a boy, my Hector bb.

As he looked at his calender and calculated back, he said I might have conceived on 22nd May, and that is Made in Barcelona. Hahahahah....I really wish it was, but doesnt seem like it, as I tested negative for so many days, and it was only on Tuesday that I tested positive.

Well, conclusion is, Dr Seng will scan me again in 2 weeks time and hope he can see the bb and from the bb's size,he will estimate how many weeks I am exactly. He prescribed the hormone pills for me, to "protect" me first. I would heed anything just to keep my bb this time round, including jabs.

Dr Seng added on that he will not draw blood this time to test as it was still early. Cham lah, blood test leh...Damn scary....Was told to take 2 tablets of folic acid now and 2 tablets of the hormone pills... Duphaston is the hormone pill

Excited and anxious.....

What a day and two

What a day and two indeed.

Just yesterday as I alighted at Boon Keng MRT on the way up to the busstop to meet hubby, I bump into my ex. I bet he saw me, and the lucky thing was I was sms-ing hubby and so I dont look around and at one point in time, I happen to just lift up my head and he was just few cm away from me walking in the opposite direction. Quickly looked dwn and sms and walked off. aiyo. what luck.

Then this morning, when I reach harbourfront MRT, I bump into another ex. (you must be wondering hw many exs I have...) It was a glance and as I was so daze, dont wear glasses, dont wear lenses, I really couldnt make out if it was him or not, but from a distance it really looks like him. Didnt acknowldege and walked on like stranger.

Told my gf about how suay this can be. and she had to poke fun of me by saying perhaps tomorrow I will bump into another. Yucky yucky yucky.

Anyway, yesterday night was my first night to be queen of the house. But then hubby got pretty worked up with doing the housework and cleaning my rabbit's cage and made me upset too. But he was alright when it was time to bed. He was so funny. He actually started his first talk to his unborn child! How silly. Its only a sac and he was mumbling mumbling to my tummy. He said he didnt want to talk to me and wanted to talk to his bb. haha.

I overheard him telling bunnies that we are gonna have a new member to the family and asked them to be guai guai. I bet he is VERY VERY happy indeed deep down but refuse to admit.

mm..today am experiencing painful nipples and swollen breast. I am already walking very slow, being very careful not to run or walk too fast. I cannot even chase after my bus either...And I got hungry very often now, but at times when I am hungry, my mouth doesnt feel like eating at all. But last week, I managed to finish up the whole bowl of rice at MIL's house and mum's place. Was feeling so guilty of eating so much and now I know why. Haha.

A big suprise...

This morning, when I woke up and took my temp, it was 36.75. For the past 2 days, it has been 36.74, so my temp is pretty constant now. Nipples were hurting too since Sunday night but it wasnt that bad. Had a sudden feeling to do a test.

And so, I woke up early, prepared breakfast and waited for hubby to leave the house before I took the test kit and test...wait..the wait is horrendous okay, even though it is a 10 mins wait. Okay, the purple dye is moving...so I rinse my hair, then peep again, and tad-da! I saw it, I really saw it this time round. It is the 2 dark double lines that I have been waiting for 4. 5 months! I was so happy. I gave thanks to God. Hurriedly showered, and sms my gf. She was the first to know, followed by hubby. hahah, I just told him you are gonna be a dad and within 2 mins, the phone was ringing. He didnt believe me and wanted me to test again, but I had already pee-ed lah.

So he said he will get another one during lunch today and we shall do the 2nd test tonight to reconfirm. Somehow I guess we can never believe ourselves. Just like my gf, she tested 5 different type before she was convinced she is expecting.

I'm eager, anxious and yet worried too. I cant wait to see my gynae to tell me that everything is alright this time round. Hubby said to make appointment on Sat. My gf is coming to our place on Sat....hee hee..

Thinking back the past 2 weeks, my mood swings were terrible. I can be so emotionally upset at the slightest smallest thing with hubby and he has to pacify me. My appetite grew too and I can get hungry easily. Thank god, last Sat, we went to the newly renovated Tiong Bahru market and I managed to eat rojak, but not the original stall that I like leh. Gena cheated. But at least that was my last rojak. Coz MIL say preggie cannot eat the sauce for the rojak. I'm gonna miss alot of my favourite food....

Happy Anniversary

Today is our 1 year 1st month ROM anniversary and I decided to give hubby a big surprise by sending flowers to his office! haha.

This magnificent idea was thought by my gf, who delivered flowers to her hubby's office. So surfing the net whole morning as I needed to place my order by 12 noon today in order for delivery between 2-5pm TODAY! Went to surf goodwood lah, noelgift lah, prince lah, then chanced upon Wishing Tree. So happy, they have really nice flowers leh and after much thoughts, think it's good to get one that has a pot lor. Wanted to choose a bouquet instead, but then, seems it is quite huge, and how is hubby gonna carry it. So I selected this "Potted Love" which is a mixure of Orange and yellow roses, wax and veronica. I substitue the yellow roses with Yellow and red tips which is very lovely too. I'm eagerly waiting to see when hubby will call when the flowers are delivered to him. haha

It was a chicken feet task to dig out fr hubby his office unit number. I had initially sms his sister to pretend to get his unit number, but she was at a meeting and I was pressed for time. So I cook up this story that one of my colleague's friend is going to his place for interview and so she wanted to find out which level he was at. He just told me Level 8th and I need the unit number, damn. So I searched the net and found #08-05, and pretended to say that the interview was at 08-05 and immediately hubby said is not his office and that gave me the opportunity to ask which office his was and bingo! haha.

So I quickly hung up and placed my order with wishingtree...

Hubby had booked an appointment to see this lady for tarot reading. This was recommended by my customer and so we decided to give it a try. Hubby was game for it. Shall update once we go for our reading on 5th July yeah...

Bad bad tuesday and it started on Monday

My temper hasnt been good past few days. Been throwing temper at poor hubby and he's been so nice to just let me be. I feel bad. Really want to get out of this lousy life.

What could be more worst than to have a evil woman to add salt into my wound. yuck yuck yuck

Met up with hubby for dinner and while on the way back, I then recalled that we left our brolly at the table! See lah. That brolly was new and it belongs to my parents ah. Told hubby to go and buy back a brolly for them. Hmpf.

Our simple webby is up

Today's Monday and I have took a day off. Really cannot stand working already. It's so routine work, and I dont have any motivation to work anymore, except to wait for my payday end of the month.

Yesterday, I finally found some time to do up a simple webby : Baby.dust It's just a simple one until we have time to get someone to help us do up. Had wanted to do some shopping cart type, but seems like abit difficult to do leh. haiz.

Roses are Red, Violets are Blue

I am so happy today. Got a surprise.
Hubby bought me a rose today. I didnt ask him why he got the rose for me. Haha, probably because I have been bugging him for flowers for days.

My gf gave me a very good suggestion. She herself bought flowers twice and sent them to her hubby's office. Yes, a lady sending flowers to guys. She wanted him to know how it feels to receive flowers and in a way hinting to him HE should be the one to send flowers not his wife. ahaha, and it worked! He bought a bouquet of flowers for his wife on their 11th year pak tor anniversary on Monday. She was so happy.

So I had jokingly told hubby I have arranged a bouquet to be sent to his office and he was shocked. Of course it was a white lie lah. And so I guess that is the reason why he bought me a rose today. It doesnt matter that it was from the florist at the market. Doesnt matter that it's only a stalk and not a bouquet. What's important is, my hubby finally bought flowers for me!!!!! It really brightens up my day especially when I was so depressed yesterday.

As days goes by, I'm very confused. I want to know the result and yet I dont wish it to be a big fat negative again. It's going to be very disappointing. And I cannot stop my eating and have put on lots of weight and everyone is overly concerned, which I hate it so much. Just want them to shut their big fat mouth and stop their comments. You arent my dearest. My hubby loves me for who I am so who are you to comment? I hate them.

I'm emtionally unstable...

Wonder if it's gonna be happy news

This morning I took my BBT and it shows 36.54. It has been increasing steadily since I last measured on Friday 9th June.
The moment I entered my temp, the chart changes again and now it shows a very very definite red line and the ovulation date changed from CD56 to CD57 which is exactly last Friday I had tested for a positive OPK! I am very happy. So right now I have to wait for 2 weeks in order to test if we make it or not.

Now also have mixed feeling. Last friday I waited for hubby quite late before he came back home. So unsure if we can strike that night or not..Pray hard pls....

Happy news...

Yesterday, there was a good news that one of the girl whom I met up to pass her the pregnancy test kit is expecting.

Then today, just got news that my poly gf is expecting AGAIN. Conceive in April and due next Jan. To think, she just delivered to a cute chubby baby boy this Jan 19th only. How envy. Her hubby is an expat and will be posted to London, so she will be following him as well.

My close gf is saying I'm all stressed up. I dont know if I really am or if I'm not. Fertilityfriend finally showed the red lines, but is dotted. It says that I have ovulated on CD56. But I tested positive on the OPK on CD57, which is last Friday. So did I miss my O or did I not?
Been having really sore nipples that hurts like hell for the past few days. Had some slight pimple outbreak as well. And for the first time last night, I felt cold! God, pls give me a sign, pls...

I love this bag

I chanced upon the flowerpod thread and then was surfing the web for LV products and I really like this speedy design. I saw this lady carrying on the MRT the other LV type of design with the logo all over the bag. It's really compact and yet seem to be able to stuff alot of items in it...
I sure do hope to own this few years time.

Really regret didnt do my research on LVs before heading for my HM. argh.


Now I am wondering if I should exchange my Ludlow wallet for this pattern..

It's a dark line!

Got home and just for the fun tested my OPK. Didnt have much pee, but then since I open the OPK already might as well tested and surprisingly it was a positive dark line! This is the first time I see 2 dark lines and I was so happy. Am I O or am I not?

Mixed....

Oh well... just got news that my ex's gonna hold his wedding at my most desirable hotel that I would love to hold my wedding at. The Grand Hyatt. This hotel was also where my brother held his wedding years back and I fell in love with the ballroom.

I would have very much love to hold my wedding there, if it's not for the cost per table and also the minimum table requirement to hold my wedding at the grand ballroom. sob sob....

dont feel good today.

X-Men....

Today after work caught the show X Men with hubbby. He likes action pack show and next show he wanna watch is superman.

I'm not quite a fan, I prefer creepy things like the Silent Hill or Da Vinci Code, but then he doesnt want to watch with me. So upset....

Hubby called me today said that daddy called him this afternoon and told him that he is flying off to Philippines urgently for some business dealing and wanted Neo to help him with the insurance issue.

So dad flew off just like that at 5pm and will only be back on Friday as there wasnt any seats available to fly back tomorrow. Oh well..

We have finally got back our refund..

OH yes, the long awaited wait. We have finally got back our refund from Ananda.

This would be the last we ever hear from Ananda.

Sick again....

I've been feeling under the weather since I touched down on Sunday.

Perhaps it was because I had shouted real loudly in the morning we were to depart at that noisy neighbour. Perhaps it was the air that was too dry for my throat to take it. Took medication, and I slept throughout.

This morning, I just couldnt get myself up and my head was really very heavy. So I dragged myself to the doctor to get a day rest. Prescribed the usual medication.

In the afternoon, my gf msn me that Ananda Travel was being sued and auctioning off their office eqpt on 19th June. This is really bad news as we still have $2000 owe by them and yet to be refunded. Hubby got worried and rushed down to their HQ to demand for cash. They came to a compromise to refund us in hard cold cash on 5th June. We have to die die get back the money. It's been 3 months since we paid up in Feb.

We finally got to hang up our photo frame in our bedroom. Not sure if the hook would tahan the weight of the frame, but just gotta try. It looks really nice.

Busy busy day

Everyone's been asking how was the trip and any photos to share. Patience my dears..I have thousands of photos and I have yet to upload them onto the web. Anyway, bet you will get bored seeing the photos, so I have to shortlist some nicer ones as well to share. Will try tonight.

I have tons of housework not done and the clothes are just pilling up in my room waiting to be ironed. What to do, we have only 7 bamboos available, and lots of clothes to wash. I have yet to finish my last pile of clothes brought back from honeymoon and there is another fresh new pile yet again. Hubby's been asking for his black socks and he got fed up and washed yesterday.

And the whole house is so dusty and I feel so erks walking on the dusty floor. This weekend we have a BBQ upcoming, and so I hope there will be time to tidy up the house. Hubby wants to force me to buy the dining table this weekend. Sigh. I guess I have to end up with the one we saw at vhive, which I didnt like the shiny metal thing. Still like the picket and rail one. sob sob....

I will be dropping by to collect my evening gown tomorrow. It's been there for months since my wedding in Feb..aww....And I think I wont be getting my wedding gown at $400 anymore. Come to think of it, I find it a waste to keep it at home, unless I can find a good buyer for it. But then it's going to be tough to find a good buyer for my gown. Who's gonna alter it? haiz....I am sure to miss my gown leh..$400..should I or should I not.