Vesak Day...

Took some shots of Rie on the way to my parents' place. She will be 3 months old tomorrow..so fast right...

Each time we walk her out, she would fall asleep. Good also lah....
We went to Baby hyperstore and got a stroller for Rie. I think it was am impulse buy, because dad kept telling us to buy and he would pay for it as a gift to his granddaughter. But hubby and myself didnt see a need to get one so early since Rie is still so young and we hardly go out much also.

So anyhow, we got a stroller and then it was down to the colour of the stroller. We had initially chosen the one on the right, grey and black. Then scarly I feel the material and compared it to the one on the left in red, the material feels different. It feels softer and closer to cotton type. Whereas the one in red is like rough texture and if there is any dirt, it can be easily cleaned with a wet cloth. I didnt quite like the colour, I prefer the orangy one, but I cant recall if I saw the orange stroller or not leh. Now abit regret why I didnt get the orange one. aiyah. I'm always like that, very fickle-minded when I purchase things and often end up going back to the store more than once.

In the end, we decided to get the red one on the left. I think men can just decide and forget about it, but for me, even after I've brought home, I'm still thinking twice if I made the right decision to choose this colour or not. Just like the time when I select the bedsheet design for Rie's baby cot, I chose the pink one, but in the end, I prefer the blue one which has bear bear pattern on it. Tsk tsk...Now the stroller is already fixed, so cannot change also. Dad didnt quite like the red one, he say so striking colour. Yeah lor, come to think of it..aiyah.

There is a pink and grey one which I like alot alot alot. but mummy said, if I have a boy next time, he might refuse to sit in it. So well...drop the idea. I STILL LIKE THE ORANGE ONE!!! How???

The stroller costs us $500 hor. The girl said original price is $629, now discount to $503. Dont know real or not. This is a big investment man. Hope it will last till Rie is 4 years old.

Changed.....

Today is my first day back to work, but will be working from home for 2 days and taking leave on Friday. Officially back to office on 4th June.

Once I get online, wah liao, so many msns and emails to clear. 200 over leh. terrible. And some of them, I just dont understand, despite putting the out of office notification, they still insist on getting some answers from me. WTH.

And then my colleague tell me that manager dont like us to work from home liao. Used the excuse that mgt dont like, who knows real or not. It is well known that our company is family oriented and they are flexible in allowing employees to work from home, but looks like this doesnt apply to our department. This makes all of us, especially those who seriously wants to work from home unhappy about it.

Is hard for me to WFH also with Rie around. I have to place her on my lap and sit infront of the laptop. At times, gotta one hand bf her, while the other deals with the mouse...haiz...busy busy.

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I thought Rie would sleep through the night yesterday since we were out in the afternoon and she didnt manage to sleep much. But no leh, she woke up at 330am for her feed, but glad she went to sleep soon after, so that I can sleep...So tired...

I wish it would rain today....& every afternoon...so that my inconsiderate neighbour cant hang her clothes.....evil me

Monday Blues...

This morning, hubby woke up feeling tired and didnt wanna go work, so he throw MC lor and kept us company.

Rie was so tired out she slept from 1030am all the way till 630am. Good girl. I had a good night sleep too...

Hubby made himself useful and went to deal with his fixed deposit at TPY. Later in the evening, we headed to Lavender MRT to pick up my old navy stuffs which I joined in a spree. So anxious to see them. Got a mini jacket for Rie, coz dad was always complaining that she is cold when we bring her out. In fact, she enjoys the air condition ah. She feels very pek chek when she is hot and sweaty...

And the photos are ready....

Me! Me! Me!
Riesia loved talking to Blur (coz she wore pinky)...kept yakking but we dont even understand a single word she is saying. hee hee.

And here comes Riesia's bf~Fabian, born a day before her..He is so darn handsome with his sideparting! He very guai, so quiet, didnt fuss alot, except when he is hungry, unlike Rie.

Rie tried to talk to Fabian but Fabian was quiet, looked around. Maybe he just woke up so he steam steam...So Rie diverted her attention to Fabian's parents instead! Blur say she trying to "tao hao" them first...hee hee, good move har, curry favour future MIL first..wahahaha.

So tao the both of them. Dont want to look at each other when we tried to take a photo of them.Mummies & Daddies had to call them, waving like mad people behind Willy the photographer to get their attention...Fabian very funnie, his head will wai wai to one side one despite mummy Gin straightening it few times...Notice Rie's hair stands up while Fabian's hair is flatten...hee hee...maybe the coach is dark colour, so cant see clearly...Lot of people asked me why Rie's hair stands up one, I also dont know....We tried to comb it down after her bath, but it will stand up again when it's dry. Mum asked us to let her wear a cap, but I dont want. So hot, then her head will perspire one...And this is the May ROM-ed babes with hubbies.....

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I'm suppose to return back to work tomorrow, but am gonna work from home for 2 days. Then 1st June take leave and back to office on 4th for a month. Sigh...I wonder how am I gonna work from home man with Rie waking up so early and she is very sticky glue to me already....

Busy busy weekend

This weekend is a busy weekend for us...

We headed to Blur's place for a mini May ROM babes & hubbies gathering. We had oishi pizza and canadian pizza for luncheon. Oishi pizza even gave us a free desert pizza ~ banana & mushroom pizza. It tastes alright, but hubby didnt like it.

We've known each other via the e-world for 2 years and have yet to make an official introduction to each other. So this is our very first, or perhaps for me, my very first time meeting the girls officially. We clicked as if we have been friends for so long and had a wonderful time catching up on what job we are holding, where, interest etc. The guys have a common interest...Transformers...

We then proceeded to watch our express highlights on our respective wedding days. It was so funny to revisit those moments again.

Another gf, Gin brought along her son. Her son, Fabian was born a day before Rie, on 28th Feb. He is so so so chubby okay at 7kg! Rie is only 6 kg+. And he has really thick black hair, sideparting somemore, like Tony Leong..hee hee, so funnie. Will put up the photo when Blur sends over....

Then we headed to my parents place. Was hoping my bro would be around so that I can see my niece..The house was so quiet, until hubby told me my niece Jodi is sound asleep in mummy's room. Yippy..So we waited for her to wake up before catching up with her. She is now such a big grown up girl liao, so different from last time...next year, she will be going to attend Primary 1. She can hold very good conversation with us and at times, makes me laugh like xiao...

After she poo poo, she came out running half naked and my mum scolded her..
Mum : Faster wear your panty, if not the wind gets into your tummy, you will get tummyache.
Jodi : Tummyache? Is it the tummy have an egg? *laugh laugh*

I couldnt stop laughing man, as I was having dinner at the living room. Peng san.

Then her dad who is my bro called and asked her if she is going to stay over that night. She pleaded with my bro lor and finally she hung up the phone happily...hee hee.

Then few minutes later, my nephew called and wanted to speak to her. He asked if she is at grandpa's place and voila, my niece actually told a white lie!

Nephew : Are you at ye ye's house?
Niece : No, I am not at ye ye's house.
Nephew : Where are you?
Niece : I am at school.

All the while, hubby and me were trying to control our laughter man.Then after she hung up, she said to us, " I tricked my brother..."

ahahahah..Kids.

Rie slept at my parents' place at 7pm and we waited for her to wake up to head home, but then she didnt! So we went home with a sleepy Rie. Fed her at 11am and she slept through the night till 7am the next morning! Surprise surprise. I woke up at 645pm and thinking to myself, wow, I had a good night sleep...

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Sunday, we went to MIL's place. Aiyah, she talk rubbish again lor. Said we can consider to employ maid,put at their house, then weekend then bring Rie home. Ask me to be a weekend mummy? no way. Listen in one ear, out the other. Today is such a hot weather that I didnt even feel like going out, but no choice...This weekend we have to go back also, coz SIL is back from her business trip. Sigh....

Friday...

Time now is 726am in the wee morning...I finally managed to stick the note on the 14th floor neighbour's door liao!!! I tried going up once in the afternoon with Rie, but they left their door opened you see..I think they open their door till very late, coz once we went at 1130pm and they were still awake...

And what a discovery okay! They keep rabbits as pets too and they are staying OUTSIDE their house! Horrible owners leh. They have 3 huge local rabbits all squeezed in a 2 feet cage only. I didnt have time to inspect much, only saw them hanging this little signboard that says " The capella family" and mommy's duno what lah. Maybe someday I go up snap a photo...Rabbits must be kept at home one mah. So selfish leh. If they keep dog, would they let the dog stay outside the house??? I must leave them a phamplet from HRSS soon...

I went up at 640am, praying hard they are not awake yet to open the door. Wah, my heart pumped non stop okay, when I stick the note. So scare they just open the door and see this xiao cha bor, then I sure dont know what to say man. So let's see if there's improvement today.

I'm a good girl today. Made breakfast for hubby and can see he is very happy..
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Rie seem to stay awake in the day time now. Like yesterday, she didnt take any afternoon nap after she woke up at 1pm. Well, no afternoon nap means I dont have free time liao. So I have to entertain her, carry here, carry there, then if she is good, she will sit quietly on my lap while I surf net. Then had to do the laundry, so left her on the bouncer. Once I am out of her sight, she will call for me liao, so have to place her somewhere where she can see me doing work...Even when I shower, I have to leave the door open so that she can see me...haiz..

being bo liao, I took some shots of Rie..

haha, I like this shot best! So cute and funnie....
Dazing....
Yoo-hoo...

See how tall I have grown.....

After that, we headed down to TPY to meet up with hubby. Halfway through walking to the busstop, my bra hook came off! Wah liao...So I had to use the sarong sling to cover the back of my tee. Infront was well protected since Rie's sitting infront mah. Then I stood behind the busstop, with 1 hand trying to fix it back. Then this ah ma, saw me and came out, asked me to stand under the shelter. She thought I was standing outside under the hot sun, as there wasnt any place under the shelter. So nice right, but I"ve yet to fix my hook leh. So bo bian, I went inside to stand lor..She chat with me, asking how old Rie is and who's looking after blah blah. By then, little Rie has fallen asleep while sitting upright. Haha, she can sleep anywhere. I see the way she sleep so cute lor..like a little bear bear..

Was just chatting with my gf and told her that Rie doesnt seem to want drink her formula milk anymore. Whenever she wakes up and cry, once I feed her with milk, she will drink and go to sleep again. But not anymore...She will taste abit and when is formula milk, she will cry and cry, until I give in to latch her and she will suckle till she falls asleep. Gf said she is treating me as a pacifier liao.Die lor, how...Cham cham.

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Tomorrow's gonna be another wonderful day. Will be heading to Blur's place for luncheon with the rest of the girls. Come to think, it's been 2 years and we have not even met before, except for Blur lah. Met her couple of times outside, but only once face to face. So this time it's going to be an official meet up. We are known as the May ROM babes..hee hee, well, that's how we got to know each other in forum mah. And that progressed to us having msn almost everyday! Am sure looking forward to meeting up with them...

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Guess what! horrible neighbour leh. She must be feeling very angry for receiving the note and instead of feeling remorseful. And you know what, she throw the bamboo even louder okay! Then hor, Rie jerked up from her deep sleep leh. So you can imagine how loud it was, from 14th floor. Horrible horrible..I feel like confronting her, but then har, she will know the note come from us leh. How? What should I do?

Oh man...

Today is the worst day of my motherhood. This is the 3rd day in a roll that Rie woke up at 4am, and refuses to go to bed! I tried all means to get her to sleep and tot I hit jackpot at 6am. Who knows, she slept only 30 mins and woke up crying again. I tried to give her milk, she cry even louder. Put her sit up on my lap and she quiet down!!!! She wanna sit and play! Wah liao eh. I left her sitting on my lap alone and she started to "talk" to the aircon, to the little blue light we switch on, to her new found friend Barney.

Hubby didnt slept well either with Rie waking up at 1230am, 2am and then 4am. I was so tired and got so fed up, I left her later in the cot to yell. Hubby got up and placed her on our bed and she quiet down. He talked to her, told her to be a good girl and go to bed. But once he left the house to work, havoc liao lor. She fuss and cry again lor, dont want to lie down on bed, want to sit up and look around. So I placed her to sit up in between out pillows and I slept beside her. She was quiet for a moment, but then, aiyah...

I tell you, I really lost my patience this time round again. I beat her thigh and scolded her. She knew I was scolding her and pout her mouth upside down wanting to cry. She pretend one leh, dont see her so young har, she know how to pretend to cry one...very smart.

Long story short, I got her to sleep only for 30 mins at 8am and 12noon. Rest of the time, she was so alert and I got fed up lor. Placed her in the bouncer and did the housework. I am really very very tired liao and sms hubby to asked if he is able to take urgent half day to come back look after her. I really wanted to give up. He cant, as his 2 colleagues throw mc, so he must stand by. Actually har, this morning, hubby wanted throw mc also. But i told him, he took leave last wed liao, if today take mc, scarly his boss not happy lor..so he no choice, went to work.

Time now is 710pm. Guess what time Rie FINALLY slept??? 545pm! Her whole clock system turned haywire leh, how..help me man. I will die if I wake up every day at 4am when I go to work in June.

More pix...

Took some photos in the evening during Riesia's bath time again....She moves alot, so many NG photos taken man...Really not easy to take shots of her...have to bluff her by splashing water, or making some weird sounds to keep her quiet...Told hubby not to use flash, he dun listen, see lah, so ugly looking....Rie cant fit in the tub when she lay down now...I'm done!Tried to snap some shots of her, and see what happens? Move here move there, all blur shots...
Another blur shot again...

"What are you doing???"


I took this photo to show hubby how much I think Rie still looks like him...See this fatty bom bom Riesia with double chin lah...Tsk tsk...

The ants are back again!!!

Dont know if there is a season where the ants would appear in my house or what. They are back to invade us once again and is sooooooo xian to see them running around the kitchen. We got rid of them for months, but then, dont know why they are back!

I am so tired this morning. Rie woke up at 4am, poo at 430 and then refuse to go to bed. When I thought she has finally slept at 630am, she woke up at 730am. Argh. I was already in deep sleep. No choice lor, entertain her till 10am, before she finally slept. I made milk for her, but she didnt even wanna drink! Bet she must be very tired..So we woke up at 3pm, fed her and she is asleep once again.

Sunday night, she woke up at 4am as well and didnt wanna go to bed. How how...I'm heading back to work in June, how to cope like that. die lor...

To be? When?

Yesterday at the hairfolio shop, hubby commented to me that although Anita looks ah lian ah lian, she can also open shop be lady boss leh. True. She have her skills mah.

I told hubby, I want to go into beauty line leh, maybe learn how to trim brows, do facial, perm lashes then open a small shop like that. Or go into the mani/pedi line, employ some girls, get the products, then be lady boss. how har? I think can leh, but hubby say I as lady boss must know the skills, in case har, employees play play, then dun want come work.

Will this dream of mine come true one day???

Happy Anniversary Dearie...

Today marks our 2nd ROM anniversary. How time flies right? Last year during this time we are in Spain, enjoying our honeymoon. And this year, we have little Riesia to celebrate with us. No surprises or gifts to exchange. Both of us are too poor and perhaps the chemistry has sizzle off liao. Hubby's already fast asleep..time is 12:24am.


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This photo was taken last Wed at bugis junction. Hubby took a day leave, (coz he didnt have mood to go to work) and accompanied Riesia and me. We went to Bugis to get more nursing bra and walk walk around. Riesia was very good and co-operative. She didnt fuss at all and I think she enjoyed looking around too.
This was taken on Friday, at Kiddy Palace. Was shopping for her pants and shorts, while she fell asleep. She was really very tired and slept for close to 3 hours. I discovered that she would cry if she didnt have enough sleep or was awaken suddenly by me or when she's having nightmare. So cute lor, coz last time she wont. But now...haiz...





And this photo was taken after Rie's KK checkup. She was SOOOOOOO dead tired. And this is the first time that she's wearing a long sleeve top, hand me down from her cousin Jodi. She looks pretty cute in it. And this is the ONLY long sleeve outing top she has. I've been looking for another up and down, but dun have nice ones. Went to Robinsons today and saw a few really pretty ones. Price also very pretty, $51.90 for just a piece of small top probably the same amount of cloth needed to manufacture a bra nia. Tsk tsk...

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Hubby brought my parents and bro to Hotel Rendezvous for dinner buffet. He wanted to treat them since he just got his bonus and to of course thank them for helping out whenever they can.

Wanted to upload some photos, but damn, my handphone's usb port isnt working. I hate my handphone now man, so slow and zi-dun. Wanna change it...

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Finally managed to get the photos uploaded from my hp liao..Riesia slept when we arrived at Hotel Rendezvous..but only for awhile...

The food was really nice and yummy, but the photo doesnt seem to do any justice to the delicious food leh....They had the soft shell crab which is on my plate on the left, very nice, but then hubby said not crispy enough.

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Yesterday had 3 hours of private moment with hubby. He accompanied me down to Hairfolio to have my eyebrows trimmed. On impuluse, i signed up 10 sessions at $130. Each session would have cost $15. Haiz...Since last year, I must have utilised at least 5 sessions should I have signed up earlier and save the $20. Anita doesnt seem to do anymore eyebrows plucking leh, she would trim the shape and have her assistant to pluck for me instead. She does a good job lah, just follow the shape and pluck, but then you know, back in Fave Nail shop, Anita plucks for me. I dont know how to put it in a nice way to ask her to help me pluck and at the same time not hurting the feelings of the assistant, coz she is really nice. Perhaps yesterday she was busy. She was helping this girl doing eyelash extension which costs $120 leh. But it looks really nice and natural leh...I wont splurge that sum of money man. Anyhow, they said I can share the sessions with friends, colleagues and family members. Anyone interested bo?

I've got a clip on Rie chatting away....She was yakking away, then I took out my hp wanting to video her, then she got all quiet for 45 seconds. Damn. Then later, after I off the video mode, wah liao, she started talking again...so here's the clip...

Dad called me just now, saying that he and mum will help me to look after Rie when I'm back at work in June. He said SIL's mum may not want to help out, but then I've yet to ask her right, how he would know. Aiyah, my parents are always like that. Too helpful, but I appreciate of course. That's why I dont like hubby to tell them things before we even tried. See what happens now? Anyhow, hubby big mouth again lah, told them I tender liao lor..xian half

Ah, forgot to add on hor, I switched Junior with Bowie. So now Junior stays with his mum and sister and Bowie alone. I need to potty train Bowie, he is so filthy liao. And so, we thought since the cage is so high up, Junior wont have a chance to hop out. We were so wrong! We left the cage opened last night. And this afternoon, I woke up at 1230pm, got a horror. Junior hop into our room, linger around and once he saw me, he hop out cheekily. Tsk tsk. God knows how long has he been out playing and having fun!!! Created a big mess of pee in the kitchen. Argh.

Quote

"Being a full-time mother is one of the highest salaried jobs...since the payment is pure love" ~ Mildred B.Vermont.

Thought this quote is very meaningful....

Rie now doesnt seem to want to sleep through the night and the night feeding is haunting me yet again. Last night, she woke up at 5am and only went to bed after much coaxing at 830am. I was so dead tired!!!!! Argh. Each time i see a yawn or she close her eyes, I feel so happy, then when she open her eyes so wide and awake, aiyo...die heart.

Anyhow, after she slept, i slept too. So tired leh, slept till 145pm then had only 40 mins to rush the packing and she woke up liao lor. Now she's sitting on my lap as I'm blogging away. At least she can sit for hours quietly you know...Not like worm, move here move there...

Yesterday it was pouring very heavily as we made our way to KK for Rie's check up. Rie was wide awake and was cooing, mumbling away while waiting to see Prof Phua. So cute lor, to see she want to interact with people and she will look around at other babies too. Hee hee. She fell asleep later, too tired..She really know how to use her charm leh, she woke up once I lay her down on the bed for Prof to check on her. Then she smile so sweetly to him ah...hahahahahah....hiao hiao..

Everything is fine for her and so Prof discharged her. Glad. Hope this would be the final trip to KK...

aiyo!!!

aiyo!!!! I've been waiting to see which photo of mine will be used, scarly....the above, which isnt one of my fav leh...xian half...My make up artist vivian asked to use my photo as one of her portfolio and I agreed. So I was waiting for her to ask me for a photo, but then no emails leh, and so I logged on and peng....saw this photo which she used lor.

The photo har, make my face look so fat leh...xian half. wish you could have used a better photo...

我真的要走了。。。

And so..I"ve tender on Tuesday, via msn unofficially liao. Made the decision when CW told me she tender also. I cannot foresee myself to stay for OT and to do EVERYTHING when A doesnt want to put in effort to do.

But on the other hand, I think, if I leave, it would 便宜 that A. She just come say 1 year nia and then joined our team in March, then boss took notice of her and like her??? Dude. My boss also blind one, she just join us only late last year, then all coz A cc her on all the emails, so boss thinks she very good at problem solving and even had the intention to promote her! WTF.

My sup told us not to cc her unnecessarily, coz she has too many work to do and emails to read, so I often take the initiative to resolve problems which I can and only escalate up to sup if I cant. And sup is on maternity leave now, so end up direct report to boss. This A also very kan lah.

So anyhow, I'm leaving for now...

Xian half! I'm gonna throw liao...

This morning, woke up and logged onto msn and got a big big surprise which I dread for it to come. I never know it would come so much earlier than me!

As expected, CW tender this morning liao. She's going to SMU, recommended by another colleague who left last month nia. SMU was willing to pay 1 month for that colleague to tender u know.

So sad....and her last day is 14th June, and that means I'm still stucked in office for another 2 weeks after she leaves..How how..How to cope like that? I really dont want to end up taking back all the shitty work again. My heart is no longer there liao, even though the benefit is good, I get along well with my colleagues and know the work at my fingertips liao. Once CW leaves, that means I'm the only one left yet again to supposedly know the whole process of my team again. Xian right? Have to retrain new people again.

CW told me partly she's leaving is coz she cannot tahan A. A is the replacement that we got from another team. The previous guy who "kicked" him out of our team, coz he is so slow and we cannot afford any people who process so slow. Who knows, this A is worst!!!! Worst than the guy. Now we regret our decision, but is too late.

Even the temp girl who is covering me during my maternity doesnt want to work with A. Then what about me? I heard from E saying that A thinks I dislike her. I never dislike her, thought she is fun loving and nice, but then now I hear horrible stories about her working attitude...Wait till I work with her in June...

So right now, headache...how to tell sup? how to break the news. one thing bad about me is, I am very soft hearted...I mean I want to just leave everything behind and leave on the last day of June. That would hit the closing period and that means the new person to replace me would only have 1 month pick up everything from me. I think sup might ask me try to extend...Aiyah, xian right????

Monday Blues?

Took this photo when I placed Rie on her tum tum to exercise her neck and arm muscle. She is quite strong you know...Now she loves to kick and kick too...

SIL finally bought herself a digi cam...ixus at $590 hor...she normally dont bear to spend so much one...She's travelling to finland and denmark for her business trip this week and will only be back on 1st June. That's why I agreed to head back MIL's place last night, as she wanted to see little Riesia...

Riesia has been having lots of nightmare lately and would wake up crying real loud. The cry is different from her hunger cries and it can sometime scare me and hubby up from our sleep...At times, we just pat pat her chest, assure that everything is alright and she will go to sleep again. At other times, despite doing that, she will still feel insecure and then I've gotta carry her up and pat her back to make her sleep again.

Was chatting with KC and found out she swaddle her son till 5months. We gave up swaddling when Rie's about 1.5 months old. So recently, I tried to swaddle her again at night when she sleep. This time, it's hubby who feel so heartpain to see her being wrapped up and not able to stretch herself,so he would unwrap her. But I think at least swaddling her makes her not to jerk more when she is asleep. Hopefully she will outgrow this...

It's another 2 more weeks before I head back to work...I dread this moment. 3 months just past like that, so fast. And I've yet to speak to my SIL's mum or my aunt if they are able to help me look after or not. Haiz....so fan
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I suddenly thought of my black hello kitty handphone pouch which I lost many months back..Dont know where I misplaced it, i cant seem to find it at home. I tried to search in the bags that I've often carried around, but dun have leh...It was a gift from Taiwan and I really like it alot...Haiz..now I'm ended up with using this ugly yukult tee-shirt pouch. So paisay to even take it out on MRT or Bus man...

Where is my pouch.....boo hoo...
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Haha, just after writing this post, i decided to search for my pouch once again and I managed to find it in one of my denim bag! So damn happy....hee hee...I mustnt misplace it again. You know, I've been very forgetful lately and trying to find my things.

Like the anklet that I bought for myself during xmas, I removed it on the day my water bag burst and before I head to hospital. Then now, I cannot find it liao, dont know where I put it, so sad....Are all mothers that forgetful?????

Happy Mother's day....

Today is mother's day and is my very first mother's day...hee hee...

We waited for Rie to wake up and then got her ready to bring her out shopping at John Little. They are having sale and we had to drop by to exchange a blouse that hubby bought for her. He got her a size small and so we needed to get a size bigger since she is growing up real fast.

She was very very guai, fell asleep in the cab and woke up not long after we arrived at John Little. She looked around and started to feel frustrated afterwards and so hubby carried her koala bear style. I think she likes the view this way, rather than often looking around with her neck turned to the side..Must be very suan for her.

Anyway, I managed to only shop for 20mins for myself, grab and go with 3 mcblue tops nia..haiz..cant shop long nowadays with Rie and hubby around...lucky the fitting room wasnt crowded..phew.

We headed to MIL's place after that and Rie fell asleep on the bus again. She normally have her afternoon nap, but whenever we head out, she cant sleep for long, probably just catch a quick wink.

This photo was taken few days back after her feed and hubby was trying to make her burp...

This was taken just yesterday during her bath time. She loves to play with water and enjoys her bath time.

Back to square one...

I hate myself so much..why am so fickle minded??? ARGH!

For the past 2 days I've been thinking if I should submit my resume to Nokia or not. Their job scope is exactly what I've been doing for the past 2.5 years and I am very certain I would get shortlisted for an interview.

But the problem lies with...What if I'm being offered the job? HOW? I know I know, I not yet submit and yet think I may get offered. Must think mah. If they are able to meet what I want, then how? Take or reject? Till then say?

The problem is me!!!! I want to earn my own money to be able to spend, yet I want to take care of Rie and want her to grow up at her own home instead of someone else's home. I'm now thinking twice about mum's advice to get a maid to look after Rie. But I dont want maid to be close to Rie just like hw my little niece and close to her maid now..How how...

KC is right and I really support what she say. JObs are always out there, but once I miss Rie's childhood, I will never get it back again. Besides if I dont have high expectations, I can get a job with a decent pay in 18 months time when Rie goes to childcare right? I wont know what will happen in the future.

And then if I stop work for 18 months and get a job, I may have to postpone bb #2 for few months...Not nice to get preggy at the starting of job also mah right...so how? dilemma.

Pue say try is foc, try is harmless. Yes I agree, so perhaps I may just hit the SEND button tonight.

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Hubby came home with lots of food today. He said that he just received his bonus, and hence, seeing that I'm eating only a meal a day, he bought 2 packets of rice for me and bread to stock up at home for my lunch.

Rie's very playful nowadays. I just discovered that by "slapping" on her thigh, she would giggle and laugh! hahaha, dont know why it would tickle her, but it sure is fun watching her laugh when I do that. And also she will laugh when I play peep-a-boo with her too! I'm amazed that she is so responsive so fast. Hee hee...

She's begining to recognize mummy too and papa is upset when Rie's closer to me. But well, I think she recognize papa too, coz she would smile at hb when he calls her....

Such a joy to have Rie around...

You are not me...

Just msn with my colleague and she told me another colleague was just telling her, should I resign and stay at home and look after baby, I will not be able to handle and would want to come out to work again after that.

I totally totally disagree. I think there are 3 types of mummies.

One - The type who wants to take care of bb and watch bb grow up - SAHM
Two - The type who wants look after bb, but have no choice to continue working
Three - The type who just want a baby but then dont want look after and continue working. ( dont be surprise there are such mummies okay, like one of my colleague).

I fall into the first type of mummy. If we can still afford, I personally feel I should give the best for my child, be there till at least she knows how to walk, talk and communicate. Rather than when she is still so young, and pass her onto a 3rd party to look after, I really dont know how that person will look after my bb.

Nearly all my colleagues think the same, ie. I will get mouldy staying at home to look after and feel xian etc etc. They are not me, I'm not like them. I dont feel good listening to what they often claim to be good advice to me. Who are they to decide for me? even my parents also let me make my own decision.

This decision should be between me and hb only and we have both decided, when Rie is able to be enrolled into childcare, I will prob find a job, unless I get preggy again.
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oh well, hubby didnt get the job. They think that he wont stay on long and moreover, since he has already stepped out of AP, why he wanna head back again? He sounds disappointed, but I told him, his current job is many times better than heading back to his old job scope again...hope he will be happy...

Terrible night yet again

Last night was another nightmare for me again!!! Rie pull stunt again and didnt want to go to bed after her last feed at 1230am. And what time she slept? At 530am!!!!! Wah liao, I was so frustrated, so mad that I just wanted to put her outside the room and let her be alone till she falls asleep. I carried her, coax her to bed, feed her thought she is hungry, then she puke all out, THRICE! And I had to change her thrice and myself once man, coz she puke all over me and on my blanket!

And I looked at hubby, so frustrated that he can sleep soundly whereas I have to jia-ga Rie. She was so wide awake okay, and wanted to play! She tried to coo coo at me for response, but I just stared at her angrily....grrr...

Finally after she doze off I slept peacefully for the next 5 hours.

Hubby told me yesterday that he turned down another interview again. I wasnt very happy with his decision. He said the company told him they are shifting to Tampines in 2 weeks time and once hubby heard there is no transport to the company from Tampines, he turn them down. I told him, he gotta weight the pros and cons and see what's his priority now. His priority should be to gain experience first mah. and if the company is willing to take him in, why not go for it right? anyhow, no matter how much I say, he has already turned down..

He said I wasnt understanding enough for him blah blah blah..Okay lor, then I keep quiet. End of story.

He's going for another interview today, very near my workplace. Was thinking IF I were to continue working, then we can go to work together and back home together too...how wonderful that would be.
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How was my weekend? Busy lor..Sat went to watch Spiderman 3 with my bro, niece and nephew. It's a nice show leh, I enjoyed it, but then hubby said not nice. My niece like those exciting shots only, other than that, she kept trying to have coversation with me, or she would turn and look around...One thing very funny was, she was very urgent and wanted to pee, but think she lun lor, until she cannot lun, then she turned and tell me : gugu,I think I really want to pee already..." So I hurriedly brought her to the toilet, but there was a Q and then the lady was so nice to let us use first...hee hee..

Then back in the seat, she asked me why are the light on the stairs getting brighter? Dude, how to answer leh? Next time when I bring my girl out for movie, wonder what's she gonna ask me...

Just took a peep at Rie and see how this little girl is sleeping???? She was sleeping vertically (see red arrow) when I placed her down at 12noon..and now, 3 hours later, she ended up horizontally.....*peng*

Riesia's new hairdo...

After weeks of being bugged by hubby, MIL and my mother, aiyah, I went ahead to trim for Rie lor. Did a simple snip snip for her side burn and back. Nice hairdo. Glad I did the hair cut, coz hubby wanted to just snip a straight line across, make her look so kuku like that. She will be mad with papa man.

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Received news today from hubby's buddy's wife. The wife had a miscarriage again. This is her fourth time. This time, doctor said her cervix wasnt strong enough to hold and hence the water bag burst this morning....So baby had to go. It was such a sad news....

Just as I thought...

well well, just as I thought my night duties are over, it's back to haunt me last night...Rie refused to sleep whole night and was so wide awake and wanted to play!!!! I tried to give her milk, let her suckle to fall asleep, sway her, walk about, pat her, NOTHING worked!!! Until 330am, I nearly lost my temper and hb woke up to take over swaying her.

He decided to off the small lamp that we on at night to trick Rie that it's time to sleep in TOTAL darkness. So scary leh, cannot see anything. Then he placed Rie in between us and I pat her...But she is still not going to bed and started to fuss, so hubby fed her with milk which she refuse earlier..She drank all and still not tired..argh..by then, I was already snoring away, so tired leh..then I was woken up by her yell again at 5am and so I carried, her, pat pat and just as I place her on my arms, wee...she closed her eyes! Finally, she is so tired and is sleeping!!! So I placed her back in the cot and switch on the small lamp and the time was 5am...my god...

I snored the moment my head touched my pillow. I didnt even hear the alarm going off and didnt even know when hubby left home for work! I am that tired and slept till 11am uninterrupted...Rie only woke up at 1130am...

Hubby came home grumbling that he's so tired blah blah and told Rie to be a good girl and sleep well tonight...
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Argh, the itch to shop is here again...I'm intending to join the old navy spree again to get some nice tees for Rie, since those clothes which were mine when I was a baby are too small for her now.

Then I chance upon this thread that this girl is helping to purchase LV stuffs back fr Europe leh and is 10 - 20% cheaper than Singapore..argh argh...so tempted to get the key and change holder. Well, that's the "cheapest" thing that I can afford lah. Although my dream is to get the speedy leh..Hubby was telling me he saw someone carry speedy in very dark chocolate. I think is the mini lin design, but then is made 58% cotton leh.. the key and change holder also have that design, but cotton? mmm...dont know worth or not. I think I rather invest in leather leh...

Are night duties over?

I woke up this morning, feeling so regret that I didnt sleep soundly at all last night. I should have lah, coz Rie slept soundly throughout from her last feeding at 1230am all the way till...8am! But then I kept waking up to check on her on every single sound she make, fearing that she might have her nightmare or feeling uncomfortable or if the blanket would get in her way. She was very tired by the time we reached home at 930pm and slept at 11am. But then she woke up crying loudly coz of having nightmare, so hubby coax her to sleep again.

It started to rain heavily at 4am. It was so scary leh, the wind kept blowing against the window and produce the ghostly sound oooo ooo..and our master bedroom door kept making this sound, eeee....scare me. Luckily Rie was in her deep slumber sleep and any sound also didnt wake her up. Phew.

So could this be the end f my night duties???Mmmm...
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Yesterday night while out dining with parents, Rie pooed! And so mum and I brought her to change in the toilet. Wanted to wash her butt, but then the stupid tap is so miserable. It was those sensor type of tap and aiyo, pathetic lor...

But anyhow, that's not the main point. The main point is, dad chat with hubby and later hubby told me dad said if I want to stop work to look after Rie, let me be. If we have already thought through that we can cope with the house instalment, daily expenses etc, then go ahead. Mum's gonna train me within the next few years to take over daddy's company, she said is easy money. Where got easy money one leh? In fact, I dont know how much they are earning every month too. Muahahah. They dont get CPF contribution, so they gotta contribute by themselves.

Hubby is so excited about me taking over the company, but I'm not keen at all! That's because all the work is still very manually done, like mum's gotta type out the invoice on a typewriter! Bro and I did try to help them do this Words so that they can just fill up the details and print it out and voila. But then, it seems didnt work lor... Hubby said we can slowly improvise the process, such as getting a doc printer if necessary, have a system to enter the orders or even set up a website for them etc. and hubby would do the accounts next time and we wont have to hire an accountant to help us. Dont know lor, mixed feelings.

Being an own boss has many good points lah, such as, one can go to work late and head back early. But mum very hardworking. She reports to work at 730am. And if the shipment arrives early, they can head back home as early as 4pm...Envy right? Oh well...everything is so uncertain for me right now. Hubby asked me yesterday what exactly am I planning, I need to let him know my thoughts.

So I told him, I want to try out for 1 month and see how it goes with Rie. If I cannot cope, then will prob resign and either look for a better pay job, OR I would just be a SAHM and think of other means to get income in. Yes, this would be my decision liao la. Final say. That is till my mind fickle again.

First of May

Today is declared by hubby family day. And so, we brought Rie out to Novena Church to say prayers and then to Novena Square to shop around, (but not for long). We just wanted to enjoy the aircon lah, hee hee...Nah, hubby felt so bored staying at home, so just wanted to walk walk lor.

This is Rie on her bus ride with papa...to TPY interchange..

Rie woke up and look see look see lor. She's usually very guai, unless she is hungry or unhappy, then she will scream. Arbo, she will guai guai look around...

Rie after her feed. Hungry Rie is an angry Rie. But once she is satisfied, she is a happy Rie again...

Staring staring...at mummy..

Busy looking around at hunks....hee hee

Next to us, there was another couple with their son. I think their son is about 6 months old. Aiyo, the mummy hor, brought out the whole tin 400gm of Similac leh, instead of those small milk containers. Then the scoop she use har, I'm not sure if it is provided by Similac, but then the scoop is blue and is way too big I feel to even scoop up a decent serving leh...Duno ah, I asked hubby the scoop like too big, he say yeah lor...well, 不知道。。。

Then we rushed home at 515pm for dad to fetch us to RTC for buffet again..yummy..today's buffet is East meets West and is really nice...I love the food, especially the Eclairs and cheesecakes...sinful sinful man. How to lose weight like that???

Riesia's first MRT ride...

Yesterday was the first time that I took Riesia out alone. I was hoping it would be easy if she is sleeping and she did fell asleep at 4pm..I was suppose to be out of house at 5pm. Who knows the moment I carried her, wanting to put her in the sarong sling, she opened her eyes and demanded milk. Argh, so had to hurriedly feed her first and left the house only at 515pm. I think she didnt have enough sleep and I was so worried that she would fuss on the way out. Luckily, she didnt. She sat quietly in the bus with me to the interchange. She is terrified of car and bus rides and often stay still, with her arms very stift. And each time the car drives over a hump, she sort of clamp her fingers tightly. Hee hee..so must comfort her not to be scared lor.

So anyhow, then it was off to the MRT. While waiting for the train, she started to scream again. Luckily, just before I left the house, I prepared a milk bottle to standby in case she screams. Phew. So fed her throughout till Somerset to meet up with hubby. She opened her eyes wide and looked around. It was her first MRT ride and I sure hope it was pleasant for her, not sure if the loud noise made her felt uncomfortable or not. : D

I was still worried that I wouldnt be able to get a seat, but luckily, it was the peak hours and the train interval was really short, so the cabins were quiet empty.

Hubby waited for me at Somerset and he took over Rie. We head down to the post office to collect the Huggies Trial pack for my niece. Hubby forgot to bring the drypers down so I had to meet him you see.

We then went to meet up with SM for dinner at Tanjong Pagar. This would be the 2nd time for us to have dinner outside without my parents and with Rie all alone. She drifted in and out of sleep and woke up again just as the food arrives. Argh! everytime at the wrong time lor. So as usual, eat, stop, coax her. Eat, stop, coax her, and this went on till I am half full and hubby took over while I ate heartedly. Was so damn hungry leh, didnt have breakfast or lunch mah...we spent $80 for 3 person with 13 dishes and I think is really worth it. Next time can bring parents there to eat. The restaurant name is Fong Kee Restaurant.
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I've bought the supplement Fenugreek from this girl over the net and started to take them on Sat night. It seems to be working for me, I really cross fingers, as my supply seem to have returned and I'm able to express 100ml per session at least once a day. Other than that, is about 40 to 60ml. I'm also trying to latch Rie more often, after advice from my gf that it would tell my body that I need more supply.

The side effect is that it makes me smell like maple syrup. I did read this effect online at Kellymon website . Didnt know it really does leh. Hee hee, so now my sweat smells like maple syrup, my pee as well too. Is a nice sweet smell lah, since I love maple syrup with my waffles. Other than that, everything is as per norm...Am gonna try this out for 1 month, hopefully able to store up for Rie when I return to work next month.